| | I've seen people come and go and normally, when they go, they never
come back... or at least that intimate and sincere concern doesn't. You
may act as if nothing really happened, but come on, no one could really
deny the awkward silence and the thick, heavy air suddenly appearing as
if you were on the top of some Himalayan atmosphere. Lets face it --
broken friendships may as well never become friendship again.
And
so it goes, I am having another pessimistic view on the vicous process
of this so-called friendship. Im 18 and still I cant effing understand
how all of this goes and how it all happens. I'd hate to accept the
fact that I am quoting this, but yeah, "I'm clueless".
Love
issues on the other hand have become considerably challenging and
confusing. One minute, we're okay, the next, we're not. How can just
being with someone become this hard? I mean, you're just with someone,
how hard can it be? Maybe I'm a dunce for not being able to manage a
simple relationship. I mean, HE loves me and could, at any moment, sell
his soul for my welfare! And what do I do? I start a conflict in every
little fold of imperfection I can see. I am difficult and trust me,
thats an underestimation. . . . .
And then, academically
speaking, I am failing... little by little, disregarding the sheer
relevance of studying. Not only am I engrossed to sleeping but I have
absolutely dedicated my time to self-ruination and utter devastation.
Sooner
or later, when my conscience has gone and my soul has turned into this
black entity of nothingness, maybe I'll decide to kill
myself.............
..... or sleep forever. |
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